I watched him from across the class room. He wouldn’t notice me.
I kept staring at him, his brown hair, eyes to match, amazing personality. I truly think I loved him.
We were decent friends, in the same classes, talked a lot, he could always make me laugh.
There was just two things that stopped us from being together:
1.) He’d never see me as anything other than a friend.
2.) He has a girlfriend.
The bell rang and I was the last one to leave for lunch.
“Hey, Molly.” Nick said coming up to me with his girlfriend, Alice.
I smiled at him, “Hey, Nick. What’s up?” I asked as we walked.
“You wanna eat lunch with us?” He asked me. My other friends weren’t here today, I guess he felt sorry for me.
I smiled, “Sure.”
“We’re heading to A&W.” Alice told me.
I nodded. She was a nice enough girl, but the only reasons why I didn’t like her was because she had Nick and she was loud. I don’t really like loud people.
We walked together and talked a lot about random things. Well mostly it was Nick and Alice who talked I just rolled my eyes and walked with them.
“So, we still on for tonight?” Alice asked.
“What’s tonight?” I asked confused.
Nick smiled apologetically, “Uh, couple stuff you know.”
I looked at him like I could believe him, “I thought you were going to teach me how to play ‘Call of Duty’ tonight?” I reminded him.
He smiled again, “Can we do that another time?”
I nodded. His girlfriend and guy friends always came before me.
We ate lunch and walked back to school. I had the rest of the classes with Nick, so we walked together.
The last two periods flew by in a matter of minutes for me. Maybe it was because I was moving so slowly.
I had a pretty good idea of what Nick and Alice were going to do tonight.
“I’m not gonna get mad,” I told Nick as we started towards our lockers, “But I wanna know why you wanna reschedule our C.O.D. night for, Alice.”
He looked around suspiciously the whispered to me, “She’s finally about to let me in her pants.”
I rolled my eyes. Of course. A horny teen aged boy. He can’t control himself can he.
I nodded, “Another time.” I told him.
“You’re the best, Moll.” He told me smiling.
I shrugged as Alice came up and gave him a hug and kiss.
“Hi.” She practically squealed.
“Hey.” He said back.
I held back rolling my eyes and tried to hold back my tears and a growl.
“Ready to go?” He asked her.
She nodded eagerly.
“Bye, Molly.” Nick said and left with Alice on his arm.
I stood there a while, not caring about anything around me.
But I was thinking, why doesn’t he see me like he sees her? I may not be the most attractive girl out there, but I think I have a pretty good personality. And that’s what matters, right?
Why am I even wasting time on him? He’ll never see me as anything other than a friend. I think I may love him, and all I want is for him to see me as some one who can love him the best and the most out of anyone.
He should be holding me tonight. I should be in his arms. I should be letting him take away my virginity. I should be on his arm. I should be the one getting kisses from his lips. I should be the one who’s allowed to love him.
But I can’t. He’ll never look at me as anything more than a friend.
I heard his foot steps fade into the empty hallway. And the door leading to the parking lot slam shut. As the bolt slid back into place, my heart broke completely.