Teddy Bear(A Hisagi Shuuhei Love Story Part 12)

A sickening crack followed by a blood curdling scream echoed out through the training grounds. Sobs followed close behind it.

“I know it was you, just admit to it.” Shiai growled to the blubbering girl on the ground.

“I didn’t do anything!” Suki screamed, “Why are you hurting me!?”

“Then who was it?” The pale girl snarled.

“I don’t know! Go ask Aiko!”

“I did. She said it was your idea. Now tell me why.” Shiai demanded.

Suki sobbed for a few moments, ignoring the question. Shiai, nearing the end of her ropes, sighed.

“Alright, we’ll play your game again. Give me your other arm.”

“No!” Suki cried.

“Then why? Tell me.”

“Shuuhei’s a great guy.” The dark haired girl began between sobs, “He’s amazing. And he ignored equally amazing women for your sickly, tomboy, ass. You could never satisfy him the way he deserves! He deserves better, Shiai! And you know it!”

“Maybe he does.” The red eyed girl began coldly, “But he chose me. And I’ll do my damnedest to make sure he’s happy, because that’s what he does for me.”

“You aren’t gonna get away with this.” Suki continued to sob, “You’ll face repercussions for what you’ve done to me!”

“Maybe so.” Shiai shrugged, “But maybe next time you’ll think twice about messing with me. You clearly didn’t get the message the first time around.”

“And daddy’s gonna save you this time?” She spat.

Shiai shrugged again, “I couldn’t care less if he does, that’s his business. What I care about is you stop making drama. I don’t care if you wanna hang out with Shuuhei, he’s allowed to have friends. Just know that he’s off the market and not interested in you. Stealing isn’t nice. And for the record, I’m taking you to the fourth squad barracks. No sense leaving you out here to suffer more than you already have.”

“Don’t touch me!” Suki screamed and started flailing around as best she could to keep Shiai away from her.

The pale girl sighed, “Hard way again it is. Hainawa.”

I sat on top of the 9th squad barracks, quietly strumming a melody on my guitar. I had gotten a lot better at it. Not quite enough to want to share my music with anyone, but enough so that I was confident enough to not hide away in the living world as I practice.

“Sweet dreams are made of these, who am I to disagree.” The soft sound of someone singing along with the melody came from behind me. I turned, embarrassed, to see who it was. I relaxed slightly as I saw the familiar red eyes and glowing, pale skin.

“Why’d you stop?” She asked as she walked up next to me.

“I’m not used to playing in front of people.” I admitted.

“Fair enough.” She shrugged, “May I sit?”

I nodded and motioned her next to me. She took it gracefully, pulling her knees up to her chest and wrapping her arms around them.

“So,” She started awkwardly. I knew she wasn’t sure how to start or continue the conversation, and, being honest, neither did I. But I thought saying something might help.

“So, I saw Suki was in the recovery ward, along with Aiko. You tie up the loose ends you wanted to?” Well that was ridiculous, I thought. Of course she tied them up, why else would they be there.

“Yeah,” She admitted sheepishly, “I think I might have gone a little too far. I broke Suki’s arm, and Aiko, from what Unahana-taicho told me, has a lot of internal bleeding. I almost feel bad, like I shouldn’t have, but I honestly don’t regret it. Horrible as that is.”

“You’re just protecting your territory.” I offered.

She looked at me with serious eyes, “You don’t belong to me, Shuuhei. You’re allowed to go out, and have friends, and talk to people. I don’t want to make you feel like you can’t do that because of me, and I don’t want others to think you can’t because of me.”

I shrugged, “People’ll talk and spread rumors regardless of what we do, Red. The people who really know us will know the truth. Does that mean you’re not mad at me anymore?”

Smooth Shuuhei, real smooth.

She giggled slightly.

Worth it.

“I’m not mad anymore.” She said, her eyes alight and smile genuine. My heart soared hearing that. It had difficult to function knowing she wasn’t happy.

“I shouldn’t even have been before. And I’m sorry. Just,” She paused and shrugged, “Shit happens. It’s no excuse, but, I’m sorry.”

I shook my head, “You have no reason to be sorry, Shiai. I’m sorry I put you through that. I know you’ve been hurt before, and, I hurt you again.”

It was her turn to shake her head, “You didn’t hurt me, Shuuhei. You never could. It’s just, I’ve bottles things up since I was a kid. I had no clue how to let them out. And now it seems that it comes out when I don’t want it to, and it directs itself at you.”

“Maybe because you know I can take it?” I shrugged.

She shrugged too, “Can I tell you something really personal?”

The look in her eyes almost killed me. I had always seen a lot of emotion behind them, but never the vulnerability she showed me right then. She never looked like a scared little child in front of me before.

I nodded, not trusting my voice. It took everything in me not to toss my guitar to the side and pull her into a tight hug.

She hesitated for a moment and licked her lips before speaking, “When, I said I was hurt before. I wasn’t talking about a previous boyfriend. You’re actually my first.” She paused again and swallowed, “What I was talking about was, when I was about ten, or so. I-uh, I was walking home from school. This man, picked me up out of no where, brought me to this abandoned wear house, or something. And he, um, he.”

She stopped, her mouth twitching like she couldn’t find words that correctly described what had actually occurred. Her eyes, for the first time since I knew her, were glassy. She took a deep breath to try to steady herself before she continued.

“He hurt you.” I finished for her placing a hand on her shoulder. She just nodded, not wanting to look me in the eye.


“You don’t need to tell me anymore, Shi.” I told her, setting my guitar aside so I could pull her into a hug and stop the tears before they came, “You were trying and that’s what matters. You trust me enough to share those scars with me. It’s difficult, and if it hurts too much to remember then don’t. You’re here now, with me. We’ll make good memories that’ll eclipse the bad ones. You’re with me, and I love you. You don’t have to say anymore.”

She didn’t. She buried her face in my shoulder and held tightly onto me for a long time. It was only after about a minute or so did I realize my shoulder was wet, and she was crying.

She always had to be something else, something tough and capable. She never got the chance, or even the option, to be sweet and innocent. Something in my heart twanged at the thought, but it was soon replaced by burning rage at the thought of what some human did to her. I had the funniest of feelings she wasn’t going to say hurt, beat, or attacked me. But something far more heinous.

“You’re okay, Shiai.” I cooed and rubbed her head, “I have you. I won’t let anything happen to you.”


Teddy Bear(A Hisagi Shuuhei Love Story Part 11)

Damn. I thought as I shunpoed all through soul society towards squad 11 barracks.

She’s back already and I’m running late.

I had taken my time because I had the perfect early birthday present picked out for her, and while in the shop I had lost track of time.

I finally came to the entrance of the compound and was about to open the gate when it got blown open. A lower ranking squad man knocked out and blown into the wall.

I quickly looked over at what had occurred.

Shiai was standing in front of the gate, hunched over and breathing heavily. Her eyes those of a demon. She had been the one to throw him.

After a second she straightened up and I got a good look at her.

This wasn’t a sparring match between two squad members. She was a mile beyond pissed off and I had no idea what had gone on.

I made a slow move into the complex, hoping to approach her unnoticed. But her hawk eyes caught everything. The rage that burned behind her ruby orbs was cut off in the coldest steel that has ever existed.

“What are you doing here?” She demanded. Her voice did not show how mad she actually was, she was an expert at hiding that.

“I was coming over here to see you after you had gotten back from your trip to the living world.” I said slowly, trying to gauge the situation. Glancing at Ikkaku and Yumichika for help here. They wouldn’t look at me.

Kenpachi was sitting seriously on the steps leading into the training building and Yachiru was glaring at me.

“Red, what’s going on?” I pressed.

“You tell me.” She growled tossing a crunched up piece of paper at my head.

Confused I uncrumpled it to see what it was. My face went pale as I saw it was a picture of me and Aiko from the other night when she had kissed me.

I swallowed before looking deep into my girlfriend’s blood red eyes, “Am I allowed to explain or do you just want to gut me now?”

She tightly crossed her arms over her chest, “Does your explanation have anything to do with you being drunk, lonely, or it not being your fault?” She accused.

“I’ll take responsibility where it lay, but I want you to know the truth.” I begged.

“Want me to know? Or don’t want to get killed?” She questioned.

I had to hold back a smirk, “If, when I’m done, you still feel the need to kill me I wont stop you from trying.”

She still glared harshly at me, but I could feel her resolve waver as she was deciding.

“Do you wanna go for a walk?” I asked, “I’ll explain everything, red.”

She threw her hands up in defeat, “Fine!”

She then started striding extremely fast out of the complex. I all but had to run to keep up with her.

If I wasn’t sure before hand, I was 100 percent certain now that she wanted to kill me.

“Do you think we should follow them, captain?” Ikkaku asked his captain.

Kenpatchi opened his eye and looked up at everyone around him. Whether or not he wanted to admit it, squad 11 was a family and they looked after one another. Everyone was concerned for their sister, his daughter.

“If Hisagi has a good reason as to why that happened, then he has a good reason.” He told his men, “If he doesn’t in the next ten or so minutes we’ll be hearing someone getting violently murdered. Shiai is more than capable of taking care of herself. Aside from that, it’s between those two. Don’t interfere unless you want to wound their pride.”

“Shiai!” Shuuhei finally lost his patience and called me by my name, “Please at the very least slow down a little bit.”

I debated for about a second and a half if I should start shunpo, but I decided against it and slowed my stride slightly.

“Who gave you that picture?” He questioned hesitantly.

“Does it matter?” I all but spat.

“I think it does.” He more murmured than anything.

I finally stopped and whipped around to face him.

“Why does it matter?” I whispered, trying not to let my anger consume me, “I think what should matter is after we exchanged ‘I love you’s, and made everything official, and went as far as we have, you take the first opportunity that I’m not here to go and do ‘that’ with another girl. If I’m not enough for you Shuuhei, just tell me. It’s better than going around behind my back trying to keep shit a secret.”

“Shiai,” He looked deep into my eyes, “I meant everything I said when I told you that I loved you. I do. I don’t want to live without you in my life. So, please, believe me when I say you’re more than enough for me. I would never do anything to hurt you, not intentionally anyway.”

“Then explain this!” I finally yelled as I ripped the photo he was still holding in his hand and waved it around, suppressing tears that wanted to fall.

“I was working late on the magazine.” He began, “I finally decided to call it a night, I leave the office and ran into Aiko, quite literally. She was drunk and then started crying. I tried to be nice and lead her out of the complex and back to her barracks, and then she forced herself on me. I swear Shiai I threw her off the second I realized what was going on and yelled at her to stay away from me. I had all the intentions of telling you once you got back too. I wasn’t about to keep something like from you, I-. I just didn’t realize that someone was there and snapped a photo. I’m sorry to have hurt you like this, Shiai. Really.”

I shook my head, partially to try to stop the tears from flowing out of my eyes, “I almost don’t want to believe you.”

“I’ll take responsibility where you find it fit. I just want you to know the truth.”

“You have too big of a heart.” I laughed bitterly, “I told you one day someone would come along and take advantage of it. One day when that happens I might not be able to find it in my heart to forgive you either.”

His head shot up to look at me, he looked relieved.

“You forgive me?” He asked and opened his arms, taking a step forward hoping to wrap me in a hug.

I took a step back.

“I forgive you for something that isn’t your fault.” I corrected, “But I’m till mad. At you. At her. At whoever was holding the camera. And Kuromaru for showing me that thing.”

He smiled brightly at me, taking another step forward.

“No.” Warned taking another step back, steeling my eyes and demeanor.

His smile was slowly melting my resolve.

“I forgive you. But I wanna be mad. At least for a little bit. At least until I can grind that bitch’s face into the rock a few dozen times until she tells me who was behind it all!”

I felt the sinister smirk break out across my lips at the thought of what I would do.

“I want one hug before you’re allowed to be mad.” Shuuhei bargained.

I scoffed, “Excuse me, you don’t have the footing right now to be making offers like that.”

His grin grew, “Don’t I?”

“No.” I growled losing my patience, “Once I’ve had the revenge on the correct people that I want, you can have all the hugs and kisses and cuddles you could ever want, teddy bear. But until then, I’m still salty with you.”

Shuuhei dropped his arms and pouted slightly for a moment before he sighed.

“Alright, I guess that’s fair. Thanks for not killing me.” He shrugged.

I grinned, “No problem. Just, I would suggest not swinging around the squad 11 complex anytime soon. At least not until I give you the green light it’s all forgiven, anyway.”

He sighed again, “Also fair.”

Teddy Bear(A Hisagi Shuuhei Love Story Part 10)

I stood at the gate to the living world, Shuuhei, my father and Yachiru next to me.

“You won’t be gone too long, will you, Shi-chan?” Yachiru pouted.

I smiled at the pink haired girl and patted her head.

“I’ll only be gone a few days. It’s been a while since I’ve been back to the world of the living. I gotta go and see my friends. Make sure they still remember me.” I assured.

“Make sure those boys don’t pull one over on ya.” Oto-san grinned down at me.

I mirrored his expression, “Like I would ever.”

He then pulled me into a tight hug which I returned. When he let go I turned to Shuuhei and embraced him deeply as well.

“Take care of yourself, red.” He whispered in my ear.

“Don’t over work yourself, teddy bear.” I whispered back to him. He lingered for a moment before he finally let me go.

The gate was ready and I waved back to them as I left.

“Bring back candy for me, Shi-chan!” Yachiru called after me.

I sighed and ran my hand through my hair as I did one last scan over the magazine lay out. I had been working my tail off the past two days without even realizing it.

I guess without Shiai around to drag me away from work I don’t realize what time it is.

Deciding everything was fine I turned off my desk lamp and stood up to leave.

As I exited the office I all but ran right into someone.

“Sorry!” I hurriedly muttered, “I didn’t see you-”

I was cut off by a soft finger pressing against my lips. I looked down, slightly shocked to see Aiko.

She was obviously drunk.

“Aiko-san?” I questioned.

“Shhh.” She cooed as she leaned into my chest before she started giggling, “You’re cute Hisagi.”

“Umm, thank you?” I questioned.

“Why are you with the albino brat? You deserve an actual woman!” She moaned.

I sighed deeply and put my hands on the girl’s shoulders before pushing her away from me at arm’s length.

“My relationship with Shiai is non of your business, and I don’t like you talking bad about her. Now I suggest you leave and get back to your own barracks.” I told her sternly.

My annoyed face dropped as she started crying.

Shit. I thought. Now what’s going on?

“Hisagi-san doesn’t like me!” She wailed, “Am I not pretty to you, Hisagi-san? Is it because I’m not a seated officer?”

I rubbed my face in annoyance. This was going to be a long night.

“It’s not I think you’re ugly, Aiko-san.” I began, “I’m loyal to Shiai. You aren’t even going to remember any of this in the morning by the looks of you.” I sighed again, “Do you need help getting back to your barracks?”

The girl in front of me just kept crying, “No! You don’t think I’m pretty! Not since I was forced to cut my hair! What am I gonna do?”

I turned the girl around and placed my hand in the middle of her back as I began to lead her out of the squad 9 building.

“I don’t know, Aiko-san. Maybe try talking to a man who’s single.” I suggested with a shrug, only half paying attention.

“I don’t want any other man!” She suddenly stopped, throwing my arm off her and whipping around to face me.

“I want you!”

And before I could say or do anything she smashed her mouth onto mine.

I stayed shocked for a moment before I threw her off of me. Literally sending her into the wall.

“Don’t you ever do that again!” I yelled at her and wiped my mouth with the back of my hand.

She giggled as she looked up at me, “I already got what I wanted.”

I cursed under my breath and stormed away from her.

I was disgusted with myself, and her!

I just hopped that Shiai would find it in her heart to forgive me when I told her about it when she got back. I thought for the briefest of seconds about hiding it from her, but dismissed it just as fast.

We both agreed to be open and honest with one another. And I loved her. I figured the worst that was going to happen was she was going to hit me and then go after Aiko.

That would be a headache, but it would be better than lying right to her face. Right?